welcome to rapture!

oh wait this isn't Bioshock. And that's a good thing, right?

4.2.26 - Yesterday, a good friend came over and helped me get some chores done. It's funny; it was actually a little difficult for me to even accept the help! But being 23 weeks pregnant, it's become a little tougher keeping up with the simple things and I was feeling guilty. I'm learning to be easier on myself, especially while juggling the two jobs. How do people with like three jobs and kids pull it off? What a sacrifice it must be. Isn't that the ultimate expression of love, sacrifice?
Looking forward to the convention in a few weeks as I know I'll be able to take a big sigh of relief once it's said and done. I enjoy them plenty, but it's hard to focus on anything else when I know we have such a big event coming up. I pray for stillness and comfort in this time. At least baby Selah is doing well! We heard her heartbeat yesterday and she's healthy and strong. :') Sweet girl, daddy and I will sacrifice all we need to bring you into a happy and fulfilling life. I can't wait to meet you.





3.21.26 - Here at the beach, it's been a delightfully breezey weekend. We had hot pot yesterday with my dad, holy moly! I'm grateful my dad likes that kind of thing, it's very different from your usual taco stand lol. Baby girl has been active and I'd have it no other way. There's so much to prepare before her arrival, and even more to get done by next month for the convention. It's a lot on our plates, but by the good grace of God, we'll do it well.





3.13.26 - I saw my big brother today. He brought his little girl and baby boy. It was really comforting; I don't get to see them often since they live out of state. I grew up with three brothers and became a massive tomboy, so to know that we're having a baby girl is mind blowing! xD I pray I can develop the softness she deserves. Maybe she'll help me find it within myself along the way? I hope she's into video games like her mom, but I'll encourage her to find her own joys and passions nonetheless. :')





3.12.26 - My sweet, adorable little love bug. Yesterday, we found out you are a GIRL!!!! HOLY MOLY. I had dreamt you were a boy, my mother-in-law also dreamt of a boy! Yet, here comes our very own little princess. Lord have mercy on my bank account. I'm so overjoyed, I don't even know what to say. But my precious little girl, you will be spoiled. Not even just by us, but by your grandparents, by your tias and tios, by your next door neighbors who are practically family, by your church family. I don't think I fully understand just how supported we really are in this journey, but we couldn't be more grateful. In the meantime, I'll try not to get overwhelmed with what needs to get done before you arrive! xD If only there were more hours in the day...





3.8.26 - It's been a stormy and rainy kind of day. The perfect kind of day to relax on the computer and get stuff done. We started off with a meeting with Jim, our unofficial project manager. This guy has helped the company immensely, for literally no pay. That seems to be a recurring theme at the moment, and partly it kills me because people deserve to be compensated for their time. But, I have faith that everyone is going to get their slice of the pie by 2027. Once our system is down, the school can run itself. It has to because once you're here, little one, I won't have much time for anything else! Shoutout to my honey, working like a machine to ensure things get done. It's like he has eight arms, oh no.... am I married to an octopus? xD





3.7.26 - You seem to really like Tillamook ice cream, it made you kick like crazy! BTW, no one EVER told me how funny and weird baby kicks would feel!! Like a tiny gentle popcorn is going off in my upper stomach xD I'm grateful beyond words nonetheless. I really like how this little site is coming along, and it's been a trip coming back to html after like almost twenty years. I can't wait to tell my LWS community about it, if you're here, I haven't forgotten about your sweet faces!! (not that I've seen most of them, but imagination is a powerful tool! xP We had a great meeting with the students this morning and creating more hype around the conference next month. Gotta work on my presentation. My little bump will be huge by then omg lol. I still sometimes can't believe I'm pregnant; we hoped and prayed for what felt like forever. And we'd be out eating or at a park and I'd see mommies with their little ones, I would get this deep sense of longing that I had never felt, thinking maybe it just wasn't in the cards for me. But, here we are. Four and a half months pregnant, taking care of a special needs young man, building an online school..and.. I'd have it no other way. Of course there are times I feel overwhelmed, but I just breathe and say a quiet prayer: God's with me.



3.5.26 - I dream of meeting you, little one. It's funny; I had never even thought of myself as a mother up until now. Not to my cats, not to those I cared for, and I can't really explain why. Motherhood seems like the ultimate reward now, who am I to be deserving of such a prize? We prayed for you, little one, and the good Lord has answered those prayers in His perfect timing. He definitely has a sense of humor, and I've come to realize that the moment I started lightening up about it all, I was pregnant.


3.4.26 - I miss DDR so much. It was hard letting go of my machine; I had her since shortly I moved into my house. I was extremely lucky to have gotten it at the price I did, the previous owner had warned me of her wiring issue. But once we got it here, she worked like a charm. Miss you, old friend, but I know you're in good hands.

How did you get here?

I suppose the destination matters not: it's the holy journey along the way.

Since you're here now, won't you stay a while?

A message from qrvsh

I find myself more and more intrigued by these precious websites. I can't wait to pour more time and energy into this project.

who the is qrvsh

QRVSH (pronounced "crush") is my music producer name I came up with in January 2025. I was going through EDM production courses online when the idea of this cute little alien girl with a big ol' green head and giant pink puffer coat with headphones and sparkly roller blades popped in my head, so I had chatgpt help me bring her to life. I currently only have atmospheric music, but plan on making some witch house/ ethereal house. I'm sure I'll post the links here once it's ready! In the meantime, keep on checking back, Star Gazer. You may just find something that inspires you.

A message from Richard

Just licking my butt and sleeping, basically living my best life.

Favourite kibble: The one I'm currently eating.

under construction

My music will go here ⋆✴︎˚｡⋆

✶ March 2026 ✶

"My heart, O Lord, is steadfast; I will sing and make music with all my soul". Psalm 108:1

Links

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• Cannelle
• OMOCAT

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